The Death of My Relationship
When it comes to romantic relationships, can
you ever really pinpoint the beginning of the
end? Was it the silly fight you had over a brand
of sugar or the sudden lack of intimacy? Can
you ever really know what could be tagged "the
turning point." Although many couples find
their "happily ever after" the others
are faced with unpleasant fate of "all
good things mustcome to an end."
Today was the day I woke up and realized that
this might be the beginning of my end. I really
can't explain why. We've fought and made up
many times already. Nothing was noticably different
between us.He still gave me his warm goodbye
in the morning and the promised to call me later.
However, somehow I knew that things were different.
Maybe it was merely my perspective that changed.
Suddenly a future with him that I had tried
so hard to imagine with him became unimaginable.
Every time I tried to envision endless happy
days ahead it seemed that all I could remember
was the visious words from our last fight or
the hours I had spent crying my eyes out afterwards.
I remembered how every time he explained what
he needed from me he seemed to be describing
someone who didn't exist in me.
I woke up with the cold, hard reality that it
was impossible for me to be
the person that he was looking for and that
he would never be the person
that I needed. Mr. Right had become Mr. Right
Now without warning and it seemed there was
nothing I could do about it.
It's an all too familiar feeling when time seems
to move slower than ever.
Each minute ticks away bringing our relationship
closer to its inevitable
doom. I knew in my heart that it was going to
die. I just didn't know where,
how or when.They say that if you know that something
isn't going to work out
you should spare the other person's feelings
and bow out gracefully. You
are coached to "do the right thing"
and be honest. "Just like ripping off a
band-aid" you should call it quits and
move on.
As the old cliché goes, "it's much
easier said than done." When you dealing
with about a dangerous concoction of emotions
and shattered dreams it isn't so easy to let
go. You become torn between following your instinct
and following your heart. You torture yourself
with endless questions of "what if"-mostly
wondering if what your feeling is "just